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2007: The Year in Review
December 31st, 2007
In this year, 2007, I:
- gave up a perfectly good, stable job that I’d had for ten years for a risky venture that paid more–or, rather, promised to pay more–and didn’t even last two months. Thus did I confirm the adage by which I’ve lived my life since grad school: risk is never worth it.
- came within a hair’s breadth of committing murder.
- did not commit murder, henceforth immunizing myself against the threat of ever “going there again” by realizing that it’s positively ridiculous to ever permit a human being to weigh so much on one’s conscience, no matter what that person has done.
- learned that “love” is simply Not Worth The Trouble, and that the best relationships are those that are casual or, at least, undemanding. Never, ever again will I even consider altering a major portion of my life in response to another person’s expectations.
- went through months of therapy to come to above conclusions.
- learned that no matter how “liberal” a so-called “Christian institution” may be, said institution is, nonetheless, a seething snakepit of backstabbers, “good ol’ boys clubs,” and falsehoods, all carefully hidden behind a shallow, flaking veneer of hypocritical “Christian virtue.” Never trust a Christian. Period.
After last year, I have but one resolution for the coming year, now less than twelve hours away: Survive. I have no ambitions left, nor goals, nor cares; I have lost every expectation of a “Quiet, Normal Life.” Honestly, if I live to see New Year’s Eve 2009, then I will consider 2008 a great success.
